Healing a broken heart ♥


Saturday, June 19, 2010
at 1:55 AM

on 17.06, rain was extreme. earlier tt day, went shopping @ plazasing. after tt, ard 10pm, rain died t a faint drizzle, amazingly walkways still clogged. in (not a, bt many) attempts t buy "The Straits Time", i literally combed th whole sg just t find pieces of recycled paper. & tt, is wow. pieces of paper never meant so much t me. nt afraid of th storm, nor th rain, bt th breaking of a promise t a far away friend.


he’s single and available. he has a body of steel and a nuclear-powered mind. but be careful, he has spent his campus life learning how t read people’s minds. you won’t wanna play with his heart.


i'm just like th sun, and you, th rose. but, i'll give you love for you t grow, t blossom. sometimes, courage may prevent me from reaching out t you, but i want you t know that i'm always trying t reach you. if you can't feel my love, just wait till i'm brave enough. t be happy, you either change th world or your thinking. t be realistic, you have t change your thinking t be happy, but for me, i'll change th world for you. ♥


you and i are like North poles of a magnet, we can never be together due to differences in thoughts and preferences. but, if someone puts a metal bar in between us, we'll always be together. you call this metal bar, LOVE.


y'know, guys like you, is why i still believe in miracles after countless failures. flight is a barrel, an obstacle, an obstruction. but i wanna face my fear, confront it, because.. because behind that torrent of rain shower, lies the key to my dreams... and i know if i don't overcome it, you'll always remain only as a silhouette in my life, my empty life. ♥


(all are extracted from my fb's wall posts).
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Wednesday, June 16, 2010
at 10:57 PM

my heart has already made clear what my choice is.

against 1million girls i'm nothing, against destiny i'm just a flick of the present.

i don't need the drama that you left behind.

you don't know, my heart's stoned, my consciousness a sleeping walk.

i'm awake but i'm dreaming, waiting for him to dream so that we can be together.

thank you, and no thanks, sorry to leave your love unrequited.


i think i might have never been happier if i'd just given up everything except my dreams and him.
pursuing them might have been mission impossible,
but just going for them,
making them come true makes me happier than knowing that i've done good in studies and still,
not a step closer t my "dreams come true".
if only life was a game with a "give up and try again" button,
i'd try countless times just t be with you. ♥.

jin ~ love you, jing.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Monday, June 7, 2010
at 7:15 PM

he has probably learnt now that i'm different from other girls.
i don't do what others do, i do what others don't.

waiting for time to pass and him to grow older is a great idea.
fake lovers whose after his looks and fame will give up.
i'm not a fool, i don't rush.
i'm true with you, and hope that you are too.
the only way to prove it to me is to wait.

do nothing but wait.

05.06.2010.
don't forget this day.
i swear upon my whole love life.
once i've grown up i'll fly to korea and find you.
if you'd grown tired of waiting, you can just leave.

it isn't a must to wait. but waiting is a must as a proof to me.

J.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Friday, June 4, 2010
at 7:54 PM

Hello blog. From now onwards I'll only visit here and post when there's something that's earth-shaking :).

I'm doing FINE! :D

And.. Well, I'm still in pursuit of love.

I'm IN it now.
I feel hopeful.
I hope it's not too late because if it is, I'll dash out to the airport and stop him from leaving.

I love JJ. Don't say sorry!
I LOVE YOU JJ!

I WANT YOU, TOO!
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Friday, May 7, 2010
at 4:04 PM

tropical rainforests.
tropical equatorial climate
1500mm rainfall
27 degrees temperature
10 degrees n and s of equator
congo basin amazon basin south america africa indonesia malaysia
emergent canopy understorey shrub undergrowth
leaves evergreen - no lack of water
leaves waxy with drip tips - allow water drain off prevent bacterial growth
branches top 1/3 of trunk - sunlight rarely reaches to the ground
barks smooth - no need to protect against extreme heat or dryness
roots shallow spreading - no need to tap water
roots buttress - to support the heavy weight of tree

tropical monsoon forests
tropical monsoon climate
1500mm rainfall
26 degrees temperature
10 degrees 25 degrees n of equator
south asia southeast asia southern china northern australia
canopy understorey undergrowth
leaves deciduous - minimise loss of water dry season
leaves waxy driptips - drain water prevent bacterial growth wet season
branches middle - abundance of sunlight
bark coarse dry - protect against extreme dryness heat forest fires
roots deep tap - tap water rainfall inconsistent


coniferous forests
cool temperate continential climate
300 - 635mm rainfall snow
-40 to 21 degrees
60 degrees and 70 degrees north of equator
alaska russia northern scandinavian northern canada
no distinct layers
leaves evergreen - continue photosynthesis
leaves needlelike - reduced loss of water through transpiration
leaves store water for use during winter
bark thick - protect against long cold winter
branches flexible downwards sloping - snow slide off easily
roots shallow spreading - absorb water during snow melts

mangrove forests
tropical equatorial climate sheltered coastal areas or where river deposits clay and silt
23.5 degrees north and south of equator
middle inland coastal zone
coastal - avicennia sonneratia
middle - rhizophora
inland - bruguiera
leaves thick leathery - reduce loss of water through transpiration
leaves broad waxy - drains water prevent bacterial growth
leaves salt secreting avicennia - regulate amount of salt in tree
leaves store excess salt avicennia sonneratia - regulate amount of salt in tree
roots avicennia pencil like breathing roots
roots sonneratia peg like breathing roots
roots rhizophora prop roots
roots bruguiera knee like roots
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Thursday, April 1, 2010
at 11:35 PM

hello dead blog.
clearly i do not bother about here anymore.
i've done some terrific achievements recently.
not going to talk about it though.

the journey of waiting has begun.
let's see who are able to complete it.

bay.

al is the love.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Friday, March 5, 2010
at 6:51 PM

"in all your fantasies, you'd always knew,
that man and mystery, were both in you..." - phantom of the opera

i'm back, for now, i'll be gone soon.

common test results will be posted soon.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Sunday, February 21, 2010
at 8:37 PM

let see if i still rmbr how to spell your name.
i'm not good in my chinese, neither am i good in recognising characters.
but i hope i can rmbr it =/

... (15min later)...

i don't rmbr anymore.
sigh. i don't know you anymore.

is this just me or what?

i miss you )): )): don't go, your back view is getting smaller.
can't you see my unwillingness?

when are you going to be brave and face it?

you've unnoticingly and unintentionally dragged 2 girls into this picture.
of course you don't feel it, because you're so selfish.

i feel like giving up.
but i'll see.

let this week decide,
you to be brave,
or me to be stubborn.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Wednesday, February 17, 2010
at 9:15 PM

i know i'll still choose qj.

but why?
i don't understand.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥



Tuesday, February 16, 2010
at 11:53 PM

i'm not going back to either of my ex.
i'm currently trapped between 2 Q's.

QJ... or QK?

my heart belongs to one.
should i decide on the guy who loves me more,
or the one i do?
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥




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