Healing a broken heart ♥


Saturday, March 14, 2009
at 11:28 PM

i dont want to be alone ..

this is what happened when you left .

our last 'boss' .

















i did not cry in the first place and i thought that my heart was crying or whatsoever .
i didnt notice the pain felt until i looked back the screenshots ive taken .
he and my friend forbid me to take ss , but i did out of sheer mischief .

it was heartbreaking .

the fun we had .
the joy we shared .
the misery we experienced .
everything . just everything .

now its gone .
seems so far away right now .
leaving behind a trail of sorrow .
and you expect me to clean it up .

you know i cant survive long .
but why ? i just dont understand .

looking back at the memories ...
suddenly i felt so meaningless .
like im living on this world for no reason .

i cant cry anymore ..
my tears has dried .
i feel almost blind now .

你真的人心留下我一个人?
好残忍。。

i thought i wont cry anymore .
i thought he doesnt mattered .
but when i was reminded of ,
the sses ,
everything we've gone through ,
suddenly i thought it was raining in my backyard .

but it wasnt raining .
i was crying .

genuine heartbroken tears .
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥




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