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Healing a broken heart ♥ Friday, July 31, 2009
at 4:36 PMsorry for the recent inactiveness. in a lan shop now with some kind of weird and huge bats. will be inactive for now. not dead, definitely not. and im glad mdm kua praised me on chinese oral although i cant speak chinese. dont ask me why am i blogging without color or anything. because i cant see any button that can change color right now. but it's still better. and for the extra irritating woofs in my chatbox, i shall dismiss them as kids' tantrums. JING WILL ALWAYS ROCK YOUR SOCKS! Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ Friday, July 17, 2009
at 7:22 PM: Sadless : Sequestered : Silence :
This is it... (: . IM ADDICTED TO VAMPIRE BLOOD WARS! Sorry I'm kinda busy nowadays playing Facebook and all. And studies are killing me, especially the guys in my class. Anyway I did a crazy thing today, and I'm sure some of you know what I'm talkin' abt. But I'm still happy (: finally got this throbbing uncomfortable off my heart. I'll miss my bear... Very much... But I'll move on in life. I had that teddy since I was Primary 3. Now I've given it away when I'm at Secondary 3. I miss my bear.. And I hope he'll take good care of it.. It meant more than just a prized possession to me. I hope you understand for my conservatism, you just don't know who gave this bear to me, and how much it means, to me. (: . Bye. Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ Thursday, July 9, 2009
at 7:56 PM[♥] :Little pricks in my heart: [♥]
♥ 好想能守候在你的身旁 ♥ 你溫柔的眼光阻擋著憂傷 ♥ 好想能停泊在你的海港 ♥ 讓船兒一直停放 永不再出航 ♥ 我在每一個淒黑夜晚獨自憂傷 ♥ 害怕這思念卻無法偽裝 ♥ 我在每一個破曉黎明 等待著天亮 ♥ 等待你給我不滅的火光 ♥ 心裡有話想說心裡的痛你懂 ♥ 有太多太多的情感覆水難收 ♥ 我不願埋怨的淚水已經沒有盡頭 ♥ ... 7% of your total life isn't short. i wonder how long can i manipulate myself for you. [♥] :Runaway Princess: [♥] Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ Tuesday, July 7, 2009
at 4:22 PM[♥] Resentful [♥] Jealous [♥] Fooled [♥] Betrayed [♥] Disappointed [♥]
Warning : chunks of text ahead. I don't know how to blog about this but... I could say I'm really disappointed. I could only say.. I don't trust you anymore. Well, not so much, at least. You broke my heart and made me jerked tears, while you were out there having fun with her. You need not tell me about those blissful moments you had with her. Because it's bad enough you left me alone for her. I understand you, it's not that I don't trust you. It's just that I still have doubts against you. Like I said, I'm sensitive and paranoid. It's not easy for a person to gain my trust. It's not easy trusting someone. Especially one whom your life depend on. Try as I might, although I know that you have always been true to me, maybe I just can't get over my personal barrier, I would always have a kind of resistance against you. Because I can't be there, I don't know what you're doing. I don't need your foolish promises, they mean ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to me. Because promises are meant to be broken, and I don't wanna see you breaking it one by one. Sorry, I can't trust you, but I will judge your actions one at a time. I have no confidence. How would you feel if you were in my spot? How would you blog readers feel, if your another half goes out with his family and have dinner at a romantic place with a girl? and left you alone? What a FAMILY reunion. The loneliness was already unbearable. Why do you have to sms me those blissful thoughts/moments of yours? Do you know that I'm alone, and helpless? I tried to ignore your smses. But you blew my top. I'm not her, why are you telling all these to me? Are you trying to tell me you are happier with her than me? I know I'm just a big crybaby. But you don't have to do this to spike me. I really hate you for hurting me. The more my tears flow, the more I HATE you. To tell you honestly, I don't know how to trust you again. You told me you smsed me because you wanted to bring me there. But I don't need these. I don't need luxury. Don't buy me with money and good life. I don't want something which you've experienced with her before. It's true when I said I want to be your first. You can say that I'm selfish, but I really hate it when other girls beat me to my destination first. You said she's just your friend. But why does your this 'friend' get to be with you, even your family, when she just asked for it, and when I tried all means to get only you out, it seemed IMPOSSIBLE? You mean a normal friend to you, means more than me to you? I know I'm ridiculous and absurd for creating a fuss out of this. But it's just how the way I'm feeling now, a feeling that you'll never understand. Your smses doesn't work. I don't need 'sorry' and 'I love you'. PROVE IT. Don't just say it. You made empty promises. I feel like I'm the only one who has been filling your promises all the while. Your actions have proven me that I mean just a little to you. Your decisions have shown me that you don't understand me. Please leave me alone for now. I don't wish to see/hear you. Don't sms me because I've purposely changed my number. Don't msn me because I've mia-ed msn. Please give me time to think. I can't listen to my heart, it's beating too loud for me to hear. I only listen to the facts, while all the facts says that you're the evil one. You want me to trust you so I can fall to my 'death'? I'm sorry but I think we all need to give each other a bit more time and space. To think what is best for us and how we can move on alone... I've already made my decision. But I need time to confirm that it's the right one. To say truthfully, I really wish to forgive you and stop these heartbreaks. But I can't... It's something that I'm not generous enough to do. One thing that's for sure, even if I've forgiven you, there's still a phrase called, "forgive, but never forget''. Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ |
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