Fate. Pure fate.
Coming back to sg soon (: !

England was great.
Probably one the best time of life yet.

Got quite emotional abit today...
but.. still..

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY! <3

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Heather don't you fucking know that I can't be with him?
What the hell are you trying to tell him infront of me?!
He's inevitably my dance teacher.
And what motive do you have trying to tell him:
"Go tell Baelia that you want her for your teacher's day present"
That so don't go with today's events okay!

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Went karaoke-ing with the MEAN girls in college.
They sing like Christina Aguilera or Beyonce.
For the first time I really had a booze of my life -.-
And I woke up with hangover (eww).

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My heart's missing him. My heart's thinking of him badly.
URGH. What's wrong with me! Can't I just forget him?
And I realised my fears are back again...

Intimacy with other people.
I just went completely stunned and speechless.
The moment I looked into his eyes. God damned it.
I was at a loss of words. As if I was electrified.

Someone tell me what can I possibly do.
I really like him, but I really want to escape from reality.
Someone please tell me this is just a dream.
And that I'll wake up soon.

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And something happened earlier. That's funny.
I was on the way back to my hostel. And this cute punk walked towards me.
Guy : Hey girl, can I have your cellphone number?
Me : Uhmm, no I suppose, *grabs George's hand and hold it*, sorry I'm occupied.
Guy : *rolls eye, shrugged and walked away*

That was so eff-ing epic LA.
And guess what.

Me & George : *pretending to walk away like a couple*
-After some distance back then-
Me : *Looks at my hand and let go nervously*
Me : *Tried to walk with a faster pace away from George*
-I dare not look back. My heart was beating too fast for me to react.-
George : *Runs closer and holds back my hand*
Me : *Shocked*
Me : *Pulls hand away*, Sorry... th..this is only an act..

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THAT. WAS. THE. MOST. HEART. POUNDING. MOMENT. EVER.

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Guess there's nothing I can do except to play along with this major facade.
I'm sorry but I don't think we fit each other.
I'm not gonna talk to you, I'll only post.
Because I know that by the time you're free, I'll be long gone.
Busy with the chicks and Royal Variety uh?
It's okay. There's no need for an apology.
You've always been as busy as a bee.

Before I came into your life, you were like this too.
No point saying sorry when you don't even know what I need. (again).
You're so busy, there's no need to know what I'm troubled with.
We ain't suitable. Not at all.

And that's that.

Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥