i wished that things are still the same.
i don't know it's fate or what,
used to ignore love chain messages,
yet nothing will happen.

yet. the worst thing happened when i ignored a chain message.
that came upon me in my dreams.
why is it him?

i wished things can still be like last time.
i can let go of him. but the memories made me feel as though something is missing.
everyday going to high school. everyday that same person makes you laugh and smile.
he would send you home everyday after school.
he gave you hope, to pass your maths.

and i don't know why.
just don't know how long will it take for this curse to settle.
i really miss him though. but i will keep my cool.

i know that he still care for me.
maybe it's just care. not love. whatsoever.
but i hope that he's happy with his choice.

dejavu.
helping me tie my school tie.
and me breaking up.

asking him tie my school tie.
and him asking for break up.

confusion of the heart.
in the first place, when he doesn't want me to go,
why did he intended to in the first place?
no matter what happens next.
im no longer here to defend myself but my pride.
let me clarify that im never going back to him.
its impossible for me to. just impossible.

ever heard of once bitten twice shy?
no way. he walked into this path himself.
now there's no returning.
and that isn't my fault.

yes. i still like him as friends.
like.
like.
like.
as long as you know how to differentiate between love and like.

what i love is the previous him.
and he is now gone with time.
i don't know, it may be forever,
but whatever happen, i will still come to a standstill.

and one more thing.
i don't love him,
i just misses the memories which i can't let go of.
beautifully haunting...
sweetly bitterish.
shattered with lots of heartbreaks.
spiced with jealousy.
filled with teardrops.
candy-fied with promises.

but now i figured it out.
that was all just.

memories.
remnants of my past.

im unable to let go of the past.
it takes time. but i eventually will.
and the one that i misses most.
is the presence of him beside me.
the him inside my memories,

shall never be forgotten.

Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥