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Healing a broken heart ♥ Sunday, August 30, 2009
at 12:13 AM♥ Will you dance in the fire? ♥
Cast aside your fears because I'm here. We've/They've tried our/their bests. There's nothing to scare. It's just the results. There's nothing special anyway. Yeah. I'm coming back soon. This period while I'm gone I actually learnt a little Swedish XD Knowing some languages that others don't, makes me feel really special. I'm pretty surprised that GWS is a cancer =x LOLS. (Don't kill me if you're reading this, George). I find cancer guys attractive XD they're always so moody and cute. My friends say that... (no offence though =X) Aries guys are blur/always makes mistakes because they're hot headed. Taurus guys are stupid/hesitant because they resemble a bull (slow). Gemini guys are flirty/*curvy* because they're half-lings/bisexual. Cancer guys are usually short and muscular due to their crabby nature. Leo guys are known to be born leaders because of their eternal optimism. Virgo guys are a woman's man as they inherited the Virgo's compassion. Libra guys are happy yet moody as their balance can prove to be low and high. Scorpio guys are extremely superstitious and wooden headed. Sagittarius guys are CUPIDS because they're arrows and on fire. Capricorn guys are just like husbands, they can be reared like goats. Aquarius guys are super sensitive, they'll *overflow* when they're full. Pisces guys likes to escape/runaway from reality as they only have scales. What warped perception of the twelve beings of zodiac! Hahahaaaa XD I find it funny though =X. That time while I'm overseas, while I was alone on a bus, a guy chased from behind. So... I asked my friend... Me : "That guy's running after the bus, what should we do?" Heather : "Nothing! What do you think he is?" Me : "What you mean?" Heather : "He must be a Taurus, stupid to run after a bus!" Me : "He's more like an Aries since he likes to run." Heather : "HAHAHA. You're always so mean." There. LOLS. Horoscopes are soooooo interesting XD! - News Flash on my love life : Hmm. Would it be extraordinary if I said I dreamt about M-- and Q-J--? To tell you more exactly I dreamt of M-- coming back to me. But at th same time, I'm attached to Q-J-- (I'm not in real life). AND... Guess what. Q-J-- almost kissed me in a room... But... That was the time my sleep was interrupted =x... I know some of you must be damn happy T>T"! What does this means? Is it a premonition or is this just plainly a dream? Hell, it's the second time I dreamt of Q-J-- -.-... AND. I really met him on the bus stop. WHAT THE HELL. Fate's playing games on me. At first it's that bastard M--. Second this unknown Q-J--. T>T" dying... Who could it be? From TWO possible guys.. it increased to FOUR -.-... I don't want so much choices.. I just want one. Because I don't wanna make th wrong choice AGAIN. S...Q...Q...M... *faint* This is so making me SQUIRM. Ol' Mighty Lord, art thou playing games with me? I seek your guidance and assistance. I crave peace and th one that's meant to be. ... But I have a revelation that. The one I'm meant to be with has already passed me. It has ENDED bitterly. Does this means that I'm staying single for life? Sigh. Stupid meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Stupid M--. Why must you be th one? I don't want you! Vanish from my life! I don't want to be fated with you! - I'm still waiting for that special someone. I know I'm super dependent. I hate being alone. And I only want that TRUE someone ):! Others can go dieeee XD! I don't want replicas. I want the genuine guy. As I said before I will not wear a shoe twice. I won't possibly go back to my ex(s). Sigh. Guess I have to face the reality aloneeeee. Being single sucks! Caucasian guys rocks. But they're still.. not suitable for me. Ppl say that I'm FLIRTY. But no, they're stupid, I can say. I'm more to a Caucasian girl. Who is more open. But I find it really funny. Because I'm not. I'm someone in between Asian and Caucasian girls. Not too conservated, nor too open. A half breed maybe? The reason why I'm not attracted to angmoh guys is because. For EVERY little things they do to you, they expect you to : Kiss them, hug them, tongue kiss them, touch them. AND EVEN HAVE SEX WITH THEM EVEN THOUGH YOURE UNDERAGE! WHAT THE HELL. Who do you take me as? Your doorman? I rather you leave me alone. I'm not your ordinary loveydovey angmoh girl. FUCK. What's wrong with guys on Earth?! Urgh. First my tragic romance. Now this. Can things be any worse?! I know. Having sex is no big deal anyway. It's just a mind concept. Virginity is pure stupidity. All depends on how you think. You can be promiscuous and still think that you're clean. You can be only molested and think that you're damned dirty. What's the big deal? I'm no chaste girl. But still don't expect me to go around fucking and having sex with anyone. I think I've said before : The ultimate proof for a virgin. Is the bloodstained bedsheet which enshrines your chastity. And it's the tears that you wept that confirmed you're no longer one. I know because I've gone through it. And I think you know what that means. Sigh. I think I'm gonna say till here. Now I don't feel like having that special someone entering my life. I've grew fond of being single. I enjoy my freedom. And I'm afraid to love. I'm scared that I love just to feel secured -.-... Hais. This is it. I'm sorry I still can't go back to you. I don't care what we did before. Just take those things I gave to you as farewell gifts. We know we were wrong to do that in th first place. It's a mistake right from the start. Because of this I'm more determined to leave you. Since we all know it's a mistake, why carry on? As I said. Virginity is just a mind concept. I won't dwell on it too much. You don't have to feel sorry or guilty either. I don't need your sympathy. Although in th first place you forced me. But in th end I still gave it to you willingly. So there's no need for you to be sorry. It was my choice. A mistake I made. I shouldn't have done that out of love. Alright enough. I'm not saying anymore. But leave me alone for now. We've already reached the end. Let go of my hand and walk our separate ways. It wouldn't be fair to me if I stay with you just because I left something of mine in you. Don't you think that it's time for us to repent? Don't you feel shameful when that bloodstain still resides on your bed? You don't. But I do. The end is the end. No further. That's all I can say about me and you. FULLSTOP. Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ |
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