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Healing a broken heart ♥ Wednesday, November 18, 2009
at 12:26 AMHey guys. I'm here t share w you a short life story of someone!
(Huge chunks of emo stuffs ahead) So, if you don't wanna get caught up in all th drama, go somewhr else! *cracks fingers & prepare tissues (:* -There's a hero somewhere hidden in your heart- On 14 February 2008, w a broken heart, I faced th world once again. I met th best & th worst guy on Earth. I wasn't friends w him. & but I noticed him. I liked him from th very start. But I was w some other guy atm. That guy wasn't a RL bf. It was someone virtual. Each passing day, I couldn't help it. My heart just flew t him pieces by pieces. & surprisingly, overtime, th broken pieces were healed. It was as perfect as before, but it a broken heart will always have scars. So I decided that this was only my fantasy. & I should stop it once & for all. On 28 April 2009. I decided t go back t th virtual guy. I broke your heart nevertheless, & I broke mine too. (I didn't know why I made this choice too. Sorry.) Unexpectedly, this love just grew tremendously. I didn't expect it at all, I thought it was physical attractions. But it wasn't why I can't let go. Then I realised... As I looked back t th past, I realised a lot of things I never once did. You were always there for me. He was always there for me too. I was never there for both of you. I had made both of you alternatives for my own desire. I had broken both of your hearts deeply. I hurt myself in th process of hurting others too. I realised how stupid I was. I knew I can't survive. I had only started t love this guy when he doesn't. But I didn't know. (<-- my great excuse) I thought I could piece everything back like you did. Similarly I failed. Someone had alr fixed your broken heart. I wasn't that girl. On 10 August. A miracle happened. But it wasn't enough for us t be together again. Deeply hurt & never recovering. On 1 November. Another miracle happened. But it STILL wasn't enough for you t realise th truth. You stirred doubts in me, & I was determined never t love another like you, another guy who can never settle his heart down t make decisions. On 12 November. Yet another miracle happened. It was too, not enough. & It ended th conspiracy btween us, It gave me a straight answer. I had FINALLY awaken. God has been telling me th answers all along. I thought it would be otherwise. When miracles happen, it'd be good. But these just plainly shattered my life. Days & nights, I questioned deep inside me, why, why, why me? Why is there simply no answer. Why is there miracles & yet nothing good is happening. Tonight. It finally came t me. That th answer had always been thr all along. Look into your past, & you'll see th future. Again & again, miracles kept on happening. But when things REALLY doesn't work out, it's time for me t know that we're REALLY nt meant t be. Or rather. We're meant t be, but in a tragic love story. Where we'll never ever have each other. When we'd always have each other by our sides. I can't be your dream girl.. Sorry but I'm just not her... Really. I changed... Isn't it funny? When you've found that Mr.Right, & I just let him go. I was so blinking STUPID. & I started questioning myself, what's my life all about. Am I really not th same anymore?! & tonight I finally see th truth. You were th one who had been giving me hope. Even when you hurt me, you'd rendered me hopelessly wishing. You make me yearn for a better day when you give me hell. You were my strongest strengths when you were beside me. You gave me th strength t carry on even though I was stupid. Thank you M. I couldn't think of a better thing t say. You have my eternal gratitude. It's something I really owe t you, & I can never repay you this life. You've always been my hero. Dreams are hard t make come true. Don't let anyone shatter them. Keep holding on, there will be a better tomorrow. In love, you'll find your way out. In love, you'll find your strengths. & that hero which resides in your heart. ... You're a hero... MY hero... You made me realise. Loving you is just like standing under th rain, although it's nice t do, I'll still fall ill in th end... Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ |
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