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Healing a broken heart ♥ Friday, December 4, 2009
at 4:13 AMMax, where th fucking hell are you?
I miss you. I can't believe I'm doing this now. It's 4am in th middle of th night, & I'm sitting down by th com crying silently. Get out of my heart please. I can't stand this suffering anymore, really. How many sleepless nights do I have t go through? How many teardrops do I have t shed? How many drops of blood do I have t drip? I'm taking in a lot of courage here. But alas, I still failed t tell you th truth. -- that I still love you. Very much. Deeply. Every breath I take seems t hurt so much. My keyboard seems t be forever wet. My face seems t be always solemn & down. It isn't easy for me t say, max. But I was wrong about you. How do I forget you? I'm in pain. Deep pain. Please get out of my mind & heart. Everytime I close my eyes, I just saw you. Do you know how painful that is? I'm feeling lonely, ... real lonely Feel like an eternal of solitude here... Now I finally get what does it means by, "you're my ecstasy". W.out you, I can't be happy or live on. Urgh... I had t close my eyes & bow my head down in front of your picture. Do you know how bad I'm feeling now? When will you finally know I'm missing you all along? Seconds felt like days.. Days felt like months.. Months felt like years.. & years felt like a lifetime... How many "really" do I have t repeat? I really really really can't stand this. I think I'm suffering from insomnia & depression, but I'm afraid t say. My world is blue now. I need you. You'll chase away all my downs. Cos' I know that only w you by my side, I can then recover. I'm vulnerable now. My tears has stopped, but I know my heart's drowning. Can you help me? & bring me out of this pain? Will you even? Max, where are you? I'm lost. I need you. I really do. Sorry, I forced myself t walk away from you ♥ |
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