Healing a broken heart ♥


Monday, December 7, 2009
at 7:14 AM

: NAME DISSECTION :

*warning : buddhist/taoist superstitious beliefs ahead*

Family visited a Chinese Temple at Kusu Islands today. [tortoise island]
Located in Malaysia. Each of us had our names dissected.

My name is Baelia Pan Li Jing.
Baelia carries a hidden meaning of "motherly" *<--- not so true k.*
Pan is th chinese surname of Pan Jin Lian, a flirtatious character in 水浒传.
Li() symbolises fox, a cunning creature.
Jing()represents spirit.

In all, I'm a yin(negative) devious fox vixen.

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Future based on name. [bad omen]
I'm never a wife, but always a mistress.
I steal, snatch, guys' heart w no intention.
Never attached, yet unavailable.
A creature of thwarted logic & impossibilities.
Life will be an irony.
I'll die w a broken heart.

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Yeah. I'm a vixen.
Even I'm one t max.
It should be time he return t hazel.

Motherly. Yet a mistress.
My life is really full of irony huh?

I couldn't help but break down in tears during th outing.
Vixen? Fox? Mistress? Is this what I'm predestined t be??
I don't want this!

Return t hazel, don't ask her t get out of your life.
No, it was all my fault, I was th one behind all of it.
Please, I'm listening t my conscience.
Go back t her.

I broke your heart once.
Although you broke mine more than once, I don't mind.
But don't break hazel's.

This is fate.
You're fated w her, accept this fact, max.

I've learnt t accept it.
It's true that I love you.
But I won't hold on t someone that doesn't want t be held on.

Return t hazel.
She's worthy of you.
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥




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Baelia Alistair Pan.
Single/Attached
I'll NEVER be available!
My heart's preoccupied
I'm currently 15
Queensway Sec
Scorpio
14 November's my birthday!
I'm a crybaby
Mad about LOVE
Don't step over my limit
She loves to sing!
I'm fun!
I like to play!
Divided in two
Blur as a sotong
I needs lots of love and concern
I'm just like a cat :D
I love attention <3
Dont judge me from the outside
Cause you dont understand ME .


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