Healing a broken heart ♥


Saturday, January 30, 2010
at 3:44 PM

Ever given your all to someone who walked away?
yes. walked away & walked back. & now i'm th one walking away.

Is there someone you should hate but you cant?
nope.

Do you like someone as more than a friend right now?
ya. but he doesn't know it.

Have you ever lost anyone close to you?
lost someone very special to me.

Was your last relationship a good one?
while it was still here, it was.

How's your heart lately?
physically - quite good except for the large chunks of food i ingested.
emotionally - a little lonely but it's great as compared to the past.

The last song you listened to?
crazy for you - madonna

What do you hate about your school?
the competition & exams.

Are you afraid of falling in love?
yup ):

What are you wearing right now?
clothes?

What did you do today?
went for flag day, slacked in luxury while others went around asking for donations.

Are you talking to someone while doing this?
ya. yanyan.

What are you going to do with your life?
live and love. regret, reflect and reconcile.

If a bear attacked you would you know how to defend yourself?
yup.

Are you younger than 21?
ya.

Do you like winter?
love it absolutely.

Are you in a relationship?
no.

How clean is your room?
like peas in a pod!

Do you fall for guys/girls easily?
nope. not at all. i'll only fall for those whom i think is special?

Do you know someone named Dan?
ya.

Do you currently want to scream at the top of your lungs?
nope but i can! :D

What do you want right now?
sing!

Last thing you drank?
plain ice water.

Do you like heated pools?
ya.

What are your plans for the weekend?
slack & enjoy life w.out school.

Do you like the color green?
Mint green yes, other greens no.

What is your dad's best friend's name?
ivan.

Do you think you can last for an hour without talking?
sure.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
there'll always be enemies.

Are looks important?
i look at the heart, it's the utmost important one. (:

What is your current mood?
hyperactive.

Your phone rings, what do you say?
hello? may i know who are you?

Do you talk about your feelings or hide them?
sometimes i'll talk abt them to a close friend, normally i'll just hide it.

How is your hair?
normal?

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
don't bother to care haters.

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
ya!

Wanting:
to catch a glimpse of him, even if it's just a tiny little diminishing backview of his.

Do you remember your dreams?
yes vividly.

Do you speak another language other than English?
chinese, hokkien(dialect), broken malay(lol), conversational dutch&japanese.

Who do you hate?
no one to be exact. i rarely hate.

When will your next kiss be?
i don't like to kiss. yucks.

Where were you at 1:01 this morning?
chinatown.

Do you tend to rip the paper off water bottles?
ya. hand itchy.

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yeah. i'm in a hurry then.

Do you cry easily?
i used to. but now i'm optimistic!

What do you look forward to in the next 3 months?
new hopes, new dreams, new life.

Anything exciting tomorrow?
sunday - a day of relaxing & sleeping.

Name something you CANNOT wait for?
christmas, halloween, valentines' :D.

Are you having a good day today?
yeah! a freaking good day of fun and laughter :D

When do you go to sleep?
8am weekends.

Who is one guy you can be your complete self around and not care what you look like ?
ivan and yanyan? (:

Are you texting someone?
lazy to for the moment.

Has a guy ever let you wear his jacket?
ya.

Do you say hello daily?
i say hello to everyone i see daily :D

Do you like where you live?
no. i like to live by the sea (:

Have you ever kissed on a boat?
ya but that's history.

Ever had surgery?
ya.

Who was the last baby you held?
idon't hold babies.. i'm afraid of them.

Did you kiss someone at midnight on New Years?
no.

Are you saving up money for anything in particular?
ya.

Do you swallow gum when you're done with it?
when i can't find a bin.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
yes if it's chemistry. no if it's just physical attractions.

Do you enjoy wearing dresses?
no, i prefer shorts.

Do you tell your mom everything?
idon't feel obliged to report my life to her.

Have you ever had the cops called on you?
yes for whatever reason that's not good.

Would you ever kiss anyone under 10?
yes. a peck on th forehead to get them to go to bed.

What are you excited about?
seeing him again.

What color are your eyes?
dark brown.

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
forced to.

Do you get mad easily?
sometimes yes, sometimes no.

How many different people of the opposite sex have you really cried over?
6?

Last thing you had to drink?
tap water.

Are you tan?
yup. i'm dark!

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
yanyan.

Will you get married?
i don't want to get tied down.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
mingzhu.

Where do you work?
tanjong pagar 7-11 nightshift.

How is life going for you right now?
okay(:

What were you doing at 3:00 AM?
dreaming.

Do you wish on 11:11?
ya!

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
i once waited for a guy for 7 hours just to see if he's fine w.out me in his life. stupid ya?

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?
nono, i love mingzhu as a friend.

Do you think you're old?
who cares.

You see a shooting star, do you make a wish?
yes.

Were you happy when you woke up this morning?
tired but happy!

Is your room ever clean?
yup.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
brobably.

Are you missing anyone?
yes I miss him now?

Who?
he's from my school but i'm not telling you.

Have you ever felt like you were "falling apart" ?
i once felt literally torn apart.

Have you ever felt like nothing would ever get better?
i once felt like i was on th verge of death.

Why are you doing this note, honestly?
i'm bored.

Love: good or bad?
Good when it's sweet & bad when there are problems.

Are you a good liar?
yes.

Name one thing that could possibly make you cry at this very moment?
i missed an opportunity concerning a guy i've met since 7 years old.

Losing people: are you okay with it, or do you cut deep with that type of thing?
losing th ones i love, is just like putting a blind me in front of a traffic light.

Do you even know who you really are?
i'm everything & i'm nothing.

Do you ever question yourself as to why you make the choices you make?
all the time even if it's stupid.

Is there someone you'd really like to hang out with and just talk about stuff?
ya. i do.

Is there something that has happened in your past that you really dislike talking about?
yup.

Do you regret doing anything this week?
regret not giving myself a chance.

How often do you talk on the phone?
once or twice a day.

Are you happy now?
i'm quite happy. although i'm a little lonely (:

Are you easily confused?
sometimes when i lose my guiding light.

Do you crack your knuckles?
no, ouch.

What is today's date?
January 30.

Does anyone know your password besides you?
nope.

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
never bothered to. just rely on intuition.

What color shirt are you wearing?
black.

Have you ever crawled through a window?
yeah & it was fun.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
yes.

Have you held hands with anyone lately?
nope.

Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
yes for that little kid inside me (:

Do you speak any other languages?
ya

Ever been given an engagement ring?
yes.. but i returned it eventually.

Have you ever kissed in the rain?
yup it was romantic but let's not bring up old stuffs (:

Do you like the rain?
i love the rain, the storms, the lightning!

What are you thinking about right now?
nothing.. on second thought, maybe him.

What should you be doing right now?
eating.

What are you listening to?
britney spears - circus.

Last person to IM?
yanyan.

Do you prefer to call or text?
text.

What were you doing at 12 am last night?
surfing the internet.

How many houses have you lived in?
3 apart from mine.

How long does it take you to shower?
2 hours.

Do you walk around naked?
i prefer to walk around with a towel.

HARD .
1. Will you answer every question honestly? yup.
2. Have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high? ya.
3. Have you ever punched anyone in the face? no, just slapped.
4. Do you miss anything or anyone? yes, i really do.
5. What makes you laugh no matter what? jokes (:
6. Have you kissed anyone on the cheek within the past two days? no, i haven't.
7. Who was the last person you talked to? yanyan.
8. What do you dislike at the moment? loneliness.

HARDER .
1. Do you get butterflies around the guy you like? ya, my heart will beat real fast.
2. Do you think it is bad to have sex at your age? i don't know about sex.
3. Will you get married? i don't want to be tied down.
4. Will you be doing drugs in the near future? never.
5. Do you lie about your age? why should i.

VERY PERSONAL .
1. Are you happy with yourself? mostly yes (:
2. Would you change yourself for the person you love? i'll change for the better :D
3. What do you tell yourself when times get hard? tomorrow will be a better day because the worst has passed.

Would you like to put last night on repeat, and live it forever?
nope. i'd like to repeat the moment when i was walking beside him and almost bumped into him.

Do you know anyone who is having a baby?
yes.

What grade are you entering?
grade 8.

School. Is it something you enjoy?
sometimes.

Have you ever been in love with a guy who's name starts with a G?
george? yes.

Is there anyone on your bad side right now?
ya.

Is there anybody you would like to get back together with?
hmm. nope.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
no.

Are you afraid of the dark?
sometimes yes, sometimes not.

Whats your current problem?
nothing :D

Have you ever kissed someone while you were on a bed?
erm. no. don't bring up old stuffs.

Last December, were you single?
ya!

Who's on your mind right now ?
him?

Meet Any Cute person of the opposite gender in the last week?
i don't care that kind of stuff.

Like this quiz?
kind of. except that it's too long (: snack time!
Sorry,
I forced myself t walk away from you ♥




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